When my heart won’t make a sound

When I can’t turn back around

When the sky is falling down

When hope cannot be found

Give me all the love and peace

Give me something I can be

Give me the way out

Give me the faith I need

When the stars are fading

When I am waiting

When the hard times come

When I can’t feel that You’re around

Give me something brighter

Give me something to sing

Give me the motivation

Give me something I can see

     Over the past several months, as time creeps closer for me to move back to the US, I’ve spent a lot of time wondering about what is to come. I wonder how I will fit into a culture that is no longer part of my life, and that I don’t necessarily fully understand. I wonder what people will think when they find out that music, movies, actors/actresses, comedians, and phrases aren’t something I follow or understand. I wonder if I’ll ever readjust to having the AC everywhere I go, and if I’ll ever think the weather is hot again.

     Honestly, I’ve been afraid, afraid to face all that is to come. I’ve sat around being afraid and worrying about all the things that are yet to come. What have I gained by worrying? Absolutely nothing! Once I realized I gain nothing by worrying, it struck me that I’ve no reason to worry. It isn’t my job to worry, God didn’t create me to sit and worry so much that I scare myself. Instead, He created me to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33).

     If I seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, I’ve nothing to lose but everything to gain. I gain the knowledge that my identity is in Him who washed away my sins by His blood. I realize that I, Victoria Ward, am a child of God. When I seek first the kingdom of God, the old goes and the new comes. I’ve no reason to worry anymore because I know who I am in Christ and who He has created me to be.

                Home. That word use to strike up three questions in my mind: Where is home? Is home in the US? Or is home in India? The simple word “home” made me feel so lost, and why couldn’t I figure out the answer to the question? Was it seriously so hard? No, I was just looking in all the wrong places.

                You see, last week I finally figured it out. Home is nowhere on earth. Home isn’t in the US or even India. Home is in heaven with God. I finally really understood the following verse:

“They are not of the world, just as I am not of the world. Sanctify them by Your truth. Your word is truth. As You sent Me into the world, I also have sent them into the world. And for their sakes I sanctify Myself, that they also may be sanctified by the truth.” John 17:16-19

I’m not of this world! I, Victoria Ward, am a child of God! My home is in heaven with my Father, not here on earth. The joy of realizing something so simple, was a joy I could not describe.

                So let me ask you this: How often do we get caught up in such confusion and turmoil of the world, that we cannot even realize something as simple as the location of our home? How often do we fail to recognize our identity in God as His children?

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:33