Over the past several months, as time creeps closer for me to move back to the US, I’ve spent a lot of time wondering about what is to come. I wonder how I will fit into a culture that is no longer part of my life, and that I don’t necessarily fully understand. I wonder what people will think when they find out that music, movies, actors/actresses, comedians, and phrases aren’t something I follow or understand. I wonder if I’ll ever readjust to having the AC everywhere I go, and if I’ll ever think the weather is hot again.

     Honestly, I’ve been afraid, afraid to face all that is to come. I’ve sat around being afraid and worrying about all the things that are yet to come. What have I gained by worrying? Absolutely nothing! Once I realized I gain nothing by worrying, it struck me that I’ve no reason to worry. It isn’t my job to worry, God didn’t create me to sit and worry so much that I scare myself. Instead, He created me to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33).

     If I seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, I’ve nothing to lose but everything to gain. I gain the knowledge that my identity is in Him who washed away my sins by His blood. I realize that I, Victoria Ward, am a child of God. When I seek first the kingdom of God, the old goes and the new comes. I’ve no reason to worry anymore because I know who I am in Christ and who He has created me to be.